I just sent out a newsletter, the topic was on healing....this seems to be a big theme for me lately, so here it is!:
What does "healing" mean?Hey everyone.
I'm trying to be more consistent with newsletter updates. I'm not sure what the aversion to writing these is.
There's part of me that doesn't feel great about "selling" anything, which is an ongoing exploration of my own perceived unworthiness. I encountered this a lot as well when I was a musician. There was something that didn't feel good about "hustling" for gigs, some part of me that didn't feel worthy.
I don't want my newsletters or blogs to be a sales pitch. I want them to foster connection. I want the way I practice Chinese medicine to be about connection, not about "fixing" people. This connection is actually already the reality of our lives, it's just very easy to forget (in fact, I would say that our society encourages us to forget!) and we often need reminders that we are never actually ever disconnected.
Another part of the aversion is the doubt that I actually have anything useful of helpful to say, or that I'll say something stupid, which again goes back to the feeling of unworthiness...which is a great segue to the main theme of this email: in our attempts to heal (be it emotional trauma, physical trauma, or feelings of unworthiness), what are we actually intending to do??
This is an ongoing question for me, one that I don't think will ever have a solid, definite answer.
In 2015 I was ordained in the Soto Zen lineage of Buddhism, and given the name 癒元 (pronounced Yu-gen in Japanese), which can be translated to "Healing Source". That's a heavy name for a teacher to give you!...and since receiving this name, I've thought a lot about: what is healing? what is the source of healing? What does it mean to heal?
What does healing mean to you?
If you're up for sharing, I'd love to hear some of your thoughts.
EJ Fry, L.Ac.